Thursday, 24 January 2013

Refilling the glass


Let's begin with an almighty congratulations to myself for posting on time, and not only on time but having written this in advance yesterday (which for me right now is actually today which all makes it a little confusing. Imagine if tomorrow never comes then what? Shut up Martha). 

I live with some of my favourite people in the world, two welshies and one Yeovillian (and occasionally a Cornwallian from next door) and as odd of a combination that that is it works very well. However being in such close proximity with the people that I love and a clashing of accents can sometimes cause arguments and, you guessed it, I shall tell you about one now.

Last night we were playing the terrifying game of 'what will we do when we finish uni?' Now I have always been pretty sure about my future it goes something like- uni-internship-minor journalist job-freelancer-work at Elle-take Lorraine Candy's job-BOOM. Nice and easy. However two of my flatmates were trying to coerce me into their business plan to start a Cafe. Starting a cafe doesn't not fit into my own little business plan of becoming editor and chief of Elle magazine so I politely declined.
(If my job involved standing next to Tom Ford my life would be complete, Sam Cam however, you would have to pay me)

This polite decline was met by impolite words of indignanty because I would not offer up my skills as a writer to help start a cafe (make note- an amateur journalist is what is required these days in order to start a catering business). My welsh flatmate described to me that, as passionate as I may be about my future career, I need to be a realist. That's when I pulled out my fail safe speech, courtesy of J.M. Barrie, of how I believed in myself and in life everything is made up of 'faith, trust and pixie dust' to which she replied 'well a career in journalism is only to be met with dirty dishes, a scabby flat and no job'.
(I do love a disney gif)

This was followed by a ferocious row and a comparison of what would be more economically viable, a column or  a cupcake? Which then lead onto reminiscing about great cupcakes of our past and before we knew it we were mates again. 

In light of all this I couldn't help but think about optimism vs pessimism. In having such a blind faith in my future am I being an optimist or simply a fool who will surely have all there dreams dashed. In life is it better to be a moronic optimist who will wind up disappointed or a pessimist who forever assumes the worst but may sometime be surprised?
(for optimistic geeks)

I feel as though this blog is long overdue following my recent posts of my resent of the fashion and blogging industry. I was beginning to feel as though I ought to just start applying for box manufacturing jobs as we speak. I have never been sure where I stand on the glass-half-full/ half-empty scenario as I myself am the love child of Pollyanna and Grumpy the Dwarf (I am often teased about my pigtail and beard combo) and have inevitably ended up a funny mix of both and most likely have some kind of personality disorder. (I like to think my gift for blogging strives from this light hearted humour with a cynical touch). 
(You can totes see where I get my good looks)

 No one would ever admit they are a pessimist, because lets face it a pessimist is Latin for kill joy. Pessimists themselves tend to use the code word 'realist' which makes any optimistic look like they haven't thought things through and allows pessimists to get away with the saying 'try not to get too excited about it'.

My Pollyanna mother bought me up to the tune of don't stop thinking about tomorrow (quite literally, Fleetwood Mac was on loop) and that the secret of a happy life was having things to look forward to. Only to be followed by Grumpy Dad's speech of don't set your heart on it because it probably won't happen. 
(Though sometimes I feel as though old Fleetwood Mac weren't all that chirpy)

Having this attitude has often rendered me immobile before an exciting prospect because I'm stung with the fear that perhaps it won't turn out as wonderful as I hoped. 

It is times like these that we can only look to Pocahontas to reassure us about being optimistic. She was just a small town girl (living in a lonely world) just like you or I. She had greater ambitions than that of those around her, she didn't want to chose the smoothest course and she didn't want to marry Kocoum (shocker I had to google the spelling of that bad boy) she wanted to go around the river bend and good on her. She suffered some hard times along her chosen path like the time her boyf faced being bludgeoned to death by her own father (and lets face it we've all been there) but she remained optimistic and everything turned out OK in the end (as proven in the sequel Pocahontas 2: Journey to a new world, such a good watch).
(Personally I think these two should have got together, would have saved a lot of hassle)

And this thinking can probably be applied to any of your favourite films whether that is Blades of Glory 'if you can dream it you can do it' or Django (I've not seen it yet but I'm sure it has a positive ending being Quentin Tarantino).
(Is there anything in life I can't relate back to Disney?)


So write that article, bake those cupcakes, open that star wars themed burlesque joint (a real place please google) because if you fail you can optimistically learn from your mistakes and optimistically remain optimistic that something better will come along. It will all turn out all right in the end. 
Furthermore if you can't ever see the good in the world then what on earth is there worth living for (please let this blog not promote the idea that there isn't anything worth living for).
(The Empire Strips Back- can't take credit for that joke, be a bit concerned if I could)

In conclusion it is worth being an optimist and having a little belief in yourself and your ability. I'm sure that at one point the Storm Trooper stripper couldn't sleep at night worrying about whether she was portraying the role authentically enough and now look at her! 

If you need any extra inspiration then just log into your pinterest account and search 'optimism' and you will surely be bombarded with sickenling optimistic quotes (see, there is my sarcasm). If you don't have a Pinterest account then your life probably isn't worth living anyway.



Friday, 18 January 2013

Things I hate about blogging

To start off, you can probably expect very little fashion in this post, furthermore it will most likely be a rant on, blogging, bloggers and the whole blogosphere. This has been spurred on by having to write two entire essays focusing on the subject of blogging that has rather taken over my life (as you can probably tell by my casual use of the word furthermore). In this judgement (haha essay joke) let us proceed.

So I started blogging about 3 years ago now, partly because I wanted to get into London College of Fashion, partly because I was hoping that I might actually get discovered and be cool enough for people to want to have awkward pictures with me on nights out. Neither of which have happened (I like to think there's still time for my fans to find me) so if you are thinking of starting a blog I'm not a great advert.

I've plodded along mainly because people get angry if I don't, I occasionally make myself laugh when writing posts and I just feel like Carrie Bradshaw whenever I get complements on it.
(We even have the same laptop, I got mine on ebay so could possibly be the same one?)

Anyway away we go...

1. Timekeeping
Naming myself Martha Thursday was the biggest mistake of my life. Never EVER name yourself after the day you are meant to post. Completely moronic, setting myself up to fail. Every time Thursday comes rolling round and I can't come up with something amusing I feel like I've failed life. Especially as my (joke steeling) blogger friend is so efficient! Before you know it people are calling you Martha Monday because you post so irregularly (which is annoyingly more catchy).
(I know right?)

2. Competitive nature
So I went to fashion week, as we all know because I won't shut up about it (you just wait its happening all over again next month). I met a lotta bloggers. Everyone always asks how many followers you have, the people I was associating with had like 300-400. 'How many do you have Martha?' '11' awkward. Made more awkward when you are asked to move out of a picture so they can take one of the blogger they actually recognise. Though my more popular blogger friend Oshley put a link on his blog to mine so do look at his too (click on his name I'm all technical like that).

3. The lookey-downey pose
Those of you who are blog connoisseurs will be familiar with this pose. One hand in hair, look down, and smile. I hate it. It is meant to look natural but when in life does one ever do that pose? what is it? 'A bird shat in my hair and I'm happy about it?' But all bloggers do it, unfortunately no one told me this rule so I tend to just go in, full beam, big grin.
(It's just friggin' criminal. I feel awkward on your behalf)


4. Self-indulgence
This is the one aspect of blogging that makes me cringe. Right now I am sat at my computer typing out this nonsense that really has no importance in the world, coming up with jokes that I assume are gonna make you laugh. Basically I think I'm really clever and funny enough to have a blog. You don't care.

5. One man band
Blogging is hard work. There's this myth that somehow it opperates as a hobby. Nah-ahh. Being entertaining is exhausting enough as it is without then having to write it all up with good spelling and grammar which admittedly is one of my short comings. It's like meeting your (non-existant) boyfriends parents, providing small talk and then writing a review on how it all went. I'd give anything to have a little intern banging out half decent blogs on my behalf, who cares if they're not any good at least I'm not writing them.
(I feel like this is the intern for me)

6. Readership
Sometimes I feel pretty hopeless. I look at my blog statistics and it tells me that precisely 8 people read my last post. In brackets it aught to say 'all of whom were either you or your mother'. Sometimes I get a few more than that, only to discover that my reader is someone from Botswana on Google images. I feel a little as though my talent is wasted.

7. Tavi Gevinson
To top it off the Queen of blogs Miss Gevinson. This isn't a personal issue or anything Tavi, before you take offence. It's just the fact that she struck so bloody lucky. Right now there are about 6000 other bloggers who do what she does much much better (including myself blates). And yet somehow she has just been handed blogger of the century award on a plate. I like to think I could write her under the table. (i.e. I'm green with envy as are the words I'm writing).
(Oh! Tavi! Mind moving your 16-year-old hiney over and making room for the rest of us?)


It's times like this, when I've written a post about what I hate about the fashion industry and another about what I hate about blogging, that I start to doubt that I'm in the right line of work. But it's when my asos order is the most exciting part of my week that I realise I am.

Happy exam period and just have a lovely day

Also I wrote this post yesterday but have delayed putting it up due to all of the above reasons. Let's just call me Martha Friday and be done with it.